Well, i guess in my life i'm always busy. All my friends have officially blacklisted (labelled) me as the "busy woman". It's not that i'm super busy or what (see all my pictures prove that i still meet my friends on a regular basis), it's just that i tend to keep myself occupied. I don't even know if that makes sense but yeah. I don't have a day which i keep empty, by that i mean having no plans. I really hate hate hate last minute changes to my schedule. I like living my life planned, i'm weird like this. I guess probably due to my work schedule, which requires me to submit my availabilities almost a week or two in advance. I'd work out my school schedule (which is like pretty much fixed for the entire school year) and tuition dates/time (also, pretty much fixed unless it's exams periods) and then arrange dates with my friends one or two weeks prior to the meetup (usually one or two per week) and throw all my available dates to work (usually 3-4 shifts). Of course, amidst all that i do keep aside time to swim/jog/shop online/watch my dramas/revise my schoolwork and most importantly to get sufficient sleep. I don't compromise on my sleep, because it's rank number one on my "To-Do" list. I try to get 8-10 hours of sleep daily else i'm super cranky. I know how i always look damn tired so yeah, i'm perpetually tired regardless of how much i sleep. Mehz, i really envy people who can survive on damn little sleep. Sleep is albeit a waste of time (sometimes).
So anyway, my friends always tell me how insane my schedule is but it really isn't!! I guess a
And that brings me to another issue which (not v close friends) people tend to ask, why do i even work so hard (3-4 shifts @ Yoguru + 'bout 6 tuition sessions a week)? Nah, i'm not working very hard tbh, i just try to utilize my time as much as i can. No, i don't come from a wealthy family. My parents don't have high education, my parents can't communicate proper in English, my parents can't afford to bring my sister and i overseas every year and my parents don't own a car. Basically, we're glad to have a roof over our head, not having to worry about our three meals and also glad that my parents are able to finance my sister's poly and my uni education. My parents basically drained their accounts (and their savings plan) just to put me through university and for that, i'm very grateful. So yeap, i really want to graduate and get a stable job so that i can repay my parents the twenty-odd thousands they took out for me to become a/an (under)graduate and to give them allowances so that they need not work as hard and of course, to bring them around to see the world. Many a times, i wished my parents have the luxury to eat and see what i'm enjoying but because, i'm still young (and incapable) i can't make efforts great enough. Seeing how hard my parents work pains me so... 我很想快点长大, 赚大钱让他们享福.
So yeah, i finance everything else myself since secondary two (besides education that is, but i've to return the money i borrowed from my parents for uni). I started looking for job before every school holiday and took up temp jobs during every holiday since then. Wellllll, except this holiday that just passed because it'll be my last holiday as a student and my dad suggested that i just keep to teaching tuitions and working at yoguru instead of squeezing another full-time job amidst everything. So yes, people need to stop giving comments like, "Wa why you so rich, keep traveling, keep eating good food, keep shopping, keep wearing new clothes, can buy dslr, can buy this buy that..." Omg please spare me from all these?! Of course, you've to see those days i (literally) worked like a dog (days that i don't even have time to eat a slice of bread), scrimp and save before i can afford all these. I choose to reveal only the good times, so ya la i don't blame anyone for saying these but seriously, all my hard-earned money ok. I am not rich, i'm seriously damn poor. I afford only what i can afford right now. Must also pamper and give myself some credit for working so hard right?! I go for brunch dates to keep my social life going, i buy nice clothes to make myself feel slightly more confident and i buy a dslr (after frigging long) because i like taking photos and being able to travel is a luxury for me. Y'know i can't live having a month with zero income because i'd to finance my phone bill, my insurance saving plans, my transport fee, my living expenses and printing of school related notes which sums up to 'bout $400 a month. Ya my savings plan is damn expensive but it's ok, when i withdraw these money at 38 years old i'm going to be a rich taitai *.* And people need to stop telling me that money is not everything and i should probably spend more time enjoying life and all. Ya i also know money is not everything, but money is essential for survival. I need to pay off all these before i can enjoy life right and the only way i can do so is to work right?
I just want to say, my life is not as beautiful as it may seem on social medias. But i know i'm very blessed to have my friends and a complete family that love and stand by me. I'm really very thankful for alot of my things in life and i try to count my blessings on days which i feel that life is being unfair to me. I'm appreciate every little things and am still learning to become a better me (which is damn hard, my temper really...sometimes i feel like slapping myself). So yeap, end of my midnight ramble. I should sleep now, goodnight xx
